faith, family, friends, pain, Struggles

Real friendships

My husband comes from a very large Mormon family (he has 84 first cousins- just on his dad’s side). They are like a giant group of friends that love each other and enjoy getting together. I worked very hard to get to know them and they made me feel like a part of the family. Over… Read More Real friendships

faith, family, love, Struggles

Leaving the church sucks

I wish that I could say that leaving the church has brought me increased happiness. I wish that I could say that my life has deeper meaning and purpose. I with that I could say that I have found a new set of beliefs to teach my children. For a long time, I even wished that… Read More Leaving the church sucks

faith, love, Missionary work

Missionary Work

I loved to sing this song when I was in primary (Sunday school for kids under the age of 12),   I want to be a missionary now “I want to be a missionary now. I don’t want to wait until I’m grown. I want to share the gospel while I’m young, For I have… Read More Missionary Work

faith, food, Struggles

Is Drinking Bad?

I did not drink any alcohol for the first 39 years of my life. I didn’t try it in high school. I didn’t go out to a bar when I turned 21. I believed all alcohol was bad for me- physically, emotionally and spiritually. Most of my friends and family didn’t drink alcohol, so it… Read More Is Drinking Bad?


Two Roads

April 21, 2017 The Road Not Taken Robert Frost, 1874 – 1963 Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere… Read More Two Roads


Church felt good

April 11, 2017 I had always tried to lead a Christlike life. I read the scriptures and listened to my religious leaders. I dutifully obeyed. I didn’t question (very much). I wanted the same belief and obedience for our children. My husband and I frequently and regularly taught classes at church to the youth. We… Read More Church felt good


When it slowly started to unravel…

April 05, 2017 In the summer of 2011 our family decided to take a trip out East. We went for a family reunion in Navoo. We wanted to show our kids the sacred place where the Mormon began. As we took our kids to the Pageant (where they act out parts from the Book of… Read More When it slowly started to unravel…


One year ago

April 04, 2017 Today is the one year anniversary. One year ago today, I was a Mormon. My husband was a Mormon AND the leader of our local congregation (called a Bishop). I took my seven kids to church for (at least) three hours every Sunday. Most of my friends were Mormon. Most of my… Read More One year ago